The page is only 1120 away from 10,000 likes in 9 months. Wow, that is good news considering FB allows 1/8 to 1/4 of those that like or follow to see our post each day unless you stay connected they remove you. So, comment, share, like, one or all. Just stay connected with us. Invite your friends to LIKE the page, maybe by Monday we will reach my goal of 10,000 likes, who knows. I have had my original page hacked I fought my way back after 18 months then it was hacked again with nasty videos and deleted did not offer it back I begged but they deleted it. Then my blog ads get pulled just as it was starting to make 100.00 a month the threshold you must meet to get paid. Yet here I am M-F and usually weekends.
This weekend I decided to take some time off and just think about things here and pray about what God wants me to do next here of anything. I do not hurt anyone with intent, I would never sabotage or try another’s livelihood. I love being here, somedays we have better shares than others but every day we try to reach hearts and bring smiles to your faces. In the last 9 years that I have been online, I’ve lost both my parents, my health started to deal me fits, I guess from so much stress being in a 37-year relationship with an addict and working 1 fulltime job with The State of Alabama, and 1 and 2 part-time jobs to support my children, pay the mortgage, etc. I’ve had three surgeries in three years, lost 1/2 my hair, felt like at times I was losing my mind but, I prayed, prayed, and prayed some more. God is good and with all that I have seen, been through, and faced in my valley’s The mountian tops are what we live for, the valley’s are for learning.
Today marks 2 weeks and 1 day of that dreaded gallbladder surgery that I allowed myself to suffer with for 10 years because I was trying to heal it. I am now healing well from that surgery, but, losing more hair from the anesthesia. I am just thankful to be alive. Throughout my life even as a child, there was dysfunction and chaos. So, it took me years to realize that since that was all I knew that was what I went after. what I sought in my life as sad as that sounds, it is true. With a great therapist and 11 months in, I go once weekly, I am learning that I have the power to stop that, God has power over me, but, there are many things I can change and have in order to live a better and happier life. one that is peaceful and not full of chaos.
I started this blog to share with you, anyone that wanted to read the jibberish about my life, my trials, have been many! I thought maybe it might allow others to see that they too can make simple daily changes that will offer them a happier healthier life. Now, for those of you reading this that have no idea what I am talking about, it might be easy for you to say yes, you just stop doing what your doing, then your life will improve! Not so fast, it is not that easy, if it were that easy we would not need a therapist or have no need to call on God if we could just change it ourselves without understanding why we do what we do to start with. It is a learning process from seeing it, reconizing it and then we can start to repair it.
Sometimes it takes years for some to take a look at who they really are and understand that many if not most of the things that have happened to them along their path were not due to them being mean, or unappreciative, or unstable. But for lack of knowing that when one has been hurt deeply very young, or at nay age, they have a wall built up that says you can not enter, or if you do allow them in you are so guarded. Once you let that guard down and they hurt you, it starts all over again. You feel that you can not trust people and you do not allow the real you to be seen by many, for fear of being hurt again. That was my experience until I started my FB page and little by little God had me open up, share things, things I never wanted to share, or thought I woule ever share. He blesses me for sharing over and over in many ways. It has helped me to grow and see so much of what took place in my life set the tone for how I handled the bad things. Yes, bad things happen to good people, why. I do not know.
Who would have known that me setting boundries at 60, three years ago it could be such a lifesaver? It truly has been for me, even though it took me so many years to get here, I have arrived, thank you God, I give you all the glory. Well, I do hope you are all having a nice weekend. Mr. Shabby is grilling steaks and been watching football all day. I will have a small amount of steak since I have no gallbladder now that breaks down fat, I will not eat much, but, I do want a little bit, I have not had a good grilled steak in about a year, my body just woud not digest it. Blessing my FB friends, see you all Monday good Lord willing.
Love,
Debbie