Good Friday afternoon, as we approach Memorial Day, let us remember those who fought for this amazing country and lost their lives doing so.
UPDATE- Ladies, I am going to share with you once again that for some of us aging isn’t easy. I’ve realized that not taking care of myself when I was younger, working 2, sometimes 3 jobs (1) full-time and 2 part-time to live a certain lifestyle for my children and myself (not rich) just what was once called middle-class, period. I worked sick and only stayed home when my children were sick. Now, I am paying the price for that and genetics play a part in some of the issues that haunt me.
So, as you may know, yesterday I went to a Urologist, for a test run, but I’ll have no answers until next week. What started as a UTI with 2 rounds of antibiotics, remained and became very painful with bladder spasms. I was given some medication and its calmed those spasms, PRAISE the Lord, for that. Other issues remain, and they did send off to see if there might be cancer cells in my bladder, which I rebuke in the name of Jesus. I am not used to being sick one thing after the other until this year, it’s awful. I also am not weak I press on as much as I can, with my walking daily, Christian meditation, and other things that calm the mind so I don’t overthink all this year’s trials.
You know, let me share this with all of you, no matter what our lives look like from the outside in, we all have issues from today and things we still wrestle with from yesterday, and even years ago. I know, we have to get to a place where we can let it go. We give it to God and in our hearts, we mean it 100% but the devil creeps back in and will flash those past hurts in your face, heart, and life. He did come to STEAL, us from God, and our blessings, etc. If that doesn’t work he moves on to trying to destroy us, even kill us.
Jesus, is my HOPE, and there are times when my stress level is so high I can’t think through a given situation, and I have to say, Lord, help me, now! I had gotten myself into a financial situation in the past several months and it had me so stressed out. I went to work on getting debt free all but my mortgage, several months ago and I have let go of my wants, and had to take on the task of riding out these debts.
I am the type of person that gets in their mind to do it and I meet my own challenges head-on. I’m proud to say that I’ve knocked 2 down and have 2 more to go. I’ve had to give up extras and wants and some time needs to do this, but I got myself there and I have to be diligent and get myself out. I’m not sure if some of my illnesses are stress related because I have been so focused on making sure I stick right to paying all of this off with a deadline to do it. So, I might slack up on myself a bit for a while on that. I just thought ok, being debt free all but my mortgage for once in 40 years would feel amazing. I wanted to experience that, and I am getting there.
I’ve been asking God to show me ways to get behind my mortgage and get it off of me as well, and that one will truly be a God thing. I wish I had realized when I was 40 that having your home paid for when you were 66 would be the biggest asset one could do for themselves when one retired and lived on a very fixed income. I’m there now but I think I sure waiting a little late, but know that I am not alone in this debt cycle. I am truly thankful that I have a home, so many do not. I feel so blessed to have the things I do and take care of what I own. I know I can not take any of it with me when God calls me HOME, but I also know it will have to last me until He does. Getting back to the subject at hand, it is stress that has caused my immune system to fail me. Quite possible, and I am working on that and praying for guidance from the Lord. I have had to learn that NOTHING in this life is perfect, and I need to and must stop trying to do everything perfectly and be perfect, I can’t and I am not. I fall short, but that doesn’t mean any of us that do are bad. It means we are human.
Continued prayers for those of you that have messaged me, and I’d ask that you continued to pray that God will heal my body, and make me stronger physically, mentally, and emotionally. Your prayers mean the world to me. Actually, that is the best thing we can do for one another as sisters in Christ is to pray for one another. Encourage one another, and help in whatever way we can. PRAYER- Wishing you all a wonderful Memorial Day.
Love,
Debbie