Thank you so much for being patient, the story continues where we left off Saturday.
Well, I left you all hanging, didn’t I? That was not my intentions, I promise you. Mr. Shabby suprised me totally by coming home after our chat about me moving there or, well, nothing that was it I had to move there with him. I was not sold on that idea at all and very upset that he was getting ready to graduate and now he tells me this. Talk about dropping a bomb on me, BOOM!
I left you from here that day as I was typing to you about what he has said, he knocked on the door. I thought to myself now who can that be NEVER in a million years did I think it would be him. Not his style at all to say you need to do this then backtrack. So, here goes! He came in and said we need to talk and I wanted to do it in person. I realize that I upset you and I am sorry for that, the way I said it was wrong, I left you thinking that was what you had to do or we were done. That is not what I want Debbie, I was wrong. He said we had decided that I would stay one more year once I got out of rehab. He was right we did, I did! I wanted to make certain that he could or would stay clean yet another year unsupervised, that was huge for me. Ok, back to him, he said we will figure out a way for us to finish out the rest of our lives together once I show you for the next year that I am done with drugs, period.
I said I hear you but, I am not sure exactly what you mean by we will be together if you are there in a year and I am here. He said I know your life is here, all but me. I also know that you have gone on with your life the two years I was away using and being a mess. You have lived here 63 years, the children are here our grandchildren are here your friends and everything you know!! WOW, blow me away he gets it he really gets it, finally. My life is here all but him!
He said what if we moved and got a one-level home, get rid of all these stairs. As well as something smaller and not as expensive, maybe 30 minutes from here and that puts me 40 minutes or so from my job and the very place and people that helped me to find myself? What do you think about that? My mind is like?? To be honest, I thought ok, who are you and where is my Mr. Shabby the one that never gave things to much thought and waited for me to take care of it the last few years we were together. GONE, for good I pray!
I said that would work for me, 30 minutes is nothing. He agreed and said well it would be a fresh start too, a new place just us, no kids this time, just visits from them, lol.
So, as far as I am concerned this is the plan unless God changes it, and He just might we never know. Now, I want to share why it took me 5 days to finish. Next week, I pray next week I will know tomorrow, I will be having surgery to get this gallbladder OUT! After 10 years of pampering it eating this and that to help it, it said no! I was in pain and have been in pain can not eat but very little a day and I mean very little since last Sunday.
Well, it started on Saturday when Mr. Shabby and I went to get a milkshake, dairy rocked my gallbladder and sent me into an attack that has not left yet. I have been housebound pretty much since Sunday night when my son and I returned home from Mr. Shabby’s graduation. I have an appointment at 9:15 AM. I am an awful patient, and my last few things I had done did not go well at all. So, I am and have been praying that the Lord will get me through this with flying colors and finally I can just live my life. One without all these restrictions (food) every day! I know that for a while I will have to watch what I eat or drink rather, lol. I also know that a lot of fatty foods do not sit well with the gut when we have no gallbladder just like when it is not working like mine. Now you know it was not me just not caring I was just not feeling well at all and was not in a place where I felt like sharing, forgive me.
The one thing I will leave you with is this, I do not share my life so pitty, I share it because years ago the Lord said, tell your story, share it. If you know me you have read that. I said No, to God I can’t, but He kept on and insisted really, so I share because of the Lord. He said there will be those that need it, those that live it and those that will pray for you along your journey, so I did almost 8 years ago and He has been pouring out His Grace and love over me since I did as He asked.
Have a blessed and enjoyable day, we love you and I am always here for any of you that need prayer, or just to talk.
Love,
Debbie