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Good Tuesday afternoon, my sweet friends. I hope everyone reading this is feeling better than I am today. No, it isn’t for poor pitiful me. It’s just we all have those days I’ve had about a week of it. You’ve heard me, and you’ve heard me looking for a house so I’m gonna move. I’m gonna stay. I’m gonna move. And I know that so many of you were thinking well Debbie, which one is it? I’m gonna tell you the honest truth. I don’t know. It seems like deal after deal after deal that seems right keeps falling through so I have to trust the process but trust me it’s so disheartening and there’s so many things that I need to do to my home. Structural Wise and I don’t have the funds so I lose that much money if things aren’t right when the inspection happens, I know

I will have to admit that the past couple of weeks I’m thinking to myself, but possibly I’ve made a mistake, but I know deep in my heart I haven’t. It’s the devil trying to bring me down even more than I already am. I’m not going to allow it. I don’t have to, and I’m not. I haven’t lost my faith. I’m just questioning my own motives, my own finances, my own decisions prior to this break up after 45 years of marriage and putting up with the things that I did I lost myself my own identity. I did not know who I was in life. What my next steps were and I can tell you this after seven months I don’t know a whole lot more than I did in the beginning, except that piece as I have told you cannot be bought, and that is one thing I have is peace from and abusive relationship. Of someone thinking of themselves only in their needs and what they want how it makes them feel and when they want it and how they want it and how it needs to be done what needs to be done and you have very little say and you are put off and put off your feelings don’t matter so yes in that aspect I am much better off, but in every other aspect, it’s been very very hard what I do this again looking down the road if I could go back, yes! Beyond a shadow of a doubt these other things will work their way out. I don’t know how God does I don’t I would like to be able to stay in this home but there’s over $3000 worth of work that needs to be done and I don’t have it. I literally don’t and it needs a new AC unit and that’s not gonna happen any time in the near future either, but you know what I still have a roof over my head. I still feel blessed every now and then the devil gets a hold of me and I start to feel sorry for myself and I think no ma’am you’re not going there devil get behind me. So I wanted to let you guys know that the last house that deal fell through. They just wanted too much for it. It was a very small house no dishwasher no place to even put a kitchen table or a dinette table and no bar. I thought to myself I guess I would eat in the recliner in the living room. Don’t know that I want to do that all the time and they were asking way too much. They weren’t budging because they had put a lot of money in it. Well, I put a lot of money in this one too, but I was budging anyway I’m beginning to think that real estate is we buy your wholesale your house wholesale and we sell our house retail kinda like they do with the car lot lol. Anyway, I wanted to keep you guys posted. I’m still in this house it truly looks like this is where God wants me right now and that’s OK. Just continue to pray for a way to be able to get the structural things that need fixed in this house at least fixed that’s important. Just agree with me in prayer if you will. I know that there’s so many of you that read my post and you’ve been through these things already and you’ve overcome them and you keep encouraging me and I appreciate it. I just feel so old and lost at times and confused and I used to be such a take charge person taking charge of my own life.

God bless my precious friends. Have yourself a wonderful Tuesday afternoon and evening. We’ll chat soon. let’s all remember that as long as we’re drawing breath God still riding our story and He is each story!