Good Tuesday morning my blog sisters. Just wanted to wish you all a Happy New Year, but more than happiness, I wish you Health, Joy, Love, Respect, and His mercies that are new each day. Many of you know that I have been on a triple dose of antibiotics, and one other medication for this H pylori which is a BAD bacterial infection in your gut. It is painful and makes you or can make you very sick. In this case, for me, I was in a lot of pain, and nauseous before and during Christmas.
I did my best to keep it together, smile, and enjoy it. I was not able to eat what I wanted as I had no appetite. Nine days in with the meds with awful headaches, and now the meds are starting to keep me up at night, causing some anxiety and a very upset stomach five more days to go, Lord, HELP me get through this. I am not sure why some breeze through it and others have such a time with the H pylori and the meds they use to get rid of it.
Mr. Shabby was a God send yesterday, he wanted the traditional Southern greens and blackeye peas for New Year’s Day. So, he got them and I helped cook them and the rest of the food. Sunday afternoon Mr. Shabby took all the Christmas decorations down from the outside of our home and I did the inside. Slower than usual, but I did it. I snapped a fast late afternoon with my cell, a little dark not much sunshine that afternoon, if any. It sure looked different after the tree was gone. I miss the tree, love that time of year but this year I just was not up to par. But, in my defense, I didn’t recognize I was really sick sick. I thought it was just stress due to me wanting everything to be perfect. I can tell you this, that is one thing I will be working on this year letting this just be, nothing is perfect and I do not have to be either, nor does my home, my car, my hair, you know what I am saying if you too place that need to be just right in all aspects of your life!! It might be called OCD in a mild form I don’t know for sure, I have never been diagnosed with it. A friend of mine and I both are like this and we ask if are we OCD, or just perfectionists. I think perfectionist. For once I would like to just enjoy things without the need to make them be “just right” perfect if you will, it can make for a lot of work.
So, I have decided when I get well, and I will I am going to work on just not stressing over things being clean and in their place all the time! It is okay for them to not be I know this but my brain just says oh no that can’t be like that. Funny, not funny! How many of you can even relate to this mushing this AM? Are you just reading this with your coffee or tea thinking, God bless her she has it bad? LoL, I have something that’s for sure. And I am ready to let go of the pressure I place on myself in 2024 if this is you too, join me let’s let go and just enjoy life more and clean less. It’s ok for things to be out of place some, it doesn’t hurt a thing!
Here’s to feeling better, getting better with enjoyment in my life and just letting the little things go. Are you in?
